You only have a little bit of time use it wisely. Do what you want don't let others tell you what to do. Its your child. You will never have the chance to do it over. Make the most of it while you can.
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my story
Hunter-Lyn On January 10, 2002, I went to my regular weekly check up. I was so excited I was ready to find out how my son Hunter-Lyn Madison Lobdell was doing. I was due any time, what a heartbreak it was to find out that my son was dead. What happened, How could this happen? Many of my questions went unanswered. At 6:00pm I went to the hospital to give birth to my son. Knowing he was already gone I had decided to have a c-section. At 7:01pm my son Hunter-Lyn was delivered stillborn. He was perfect. The most beautiful little boy ever. How could this happen? I did everything by the book. I had the most perfect pregnancy. I was never sick, no morning sickness, no cramps, no food irritations, just a perfect pregnancy.
Knowing what I know now, I would have done things differently. I would have held my son, talked to him. I would have let him know just how much I loved him, and wanted him. I never did that. I was scared, I didn't know how I would react to him. I did see him but only for a moment. When a tragedy happens in an instant you have to make the decisions right away. The decisions I made were while I was under the influence of a lot of drugs due to surgery, I didn't know what was going on. The choices I made were right for me at that time. It wasn't until about 3 days later that I regretted the choices I had made. If you read this you probably know what IM going through. It is tough. The toughest thing I have ever had to deal with. Many people say " your young you can have another baby" I don't want another baby I want the one I cant have.
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